I am in alot of pain. I will call the surgeon after I get off work. I can't leave early again or miss another day- we'll be really bad off. Its hard enough with all the bills and the cost of gas! I don't think its my ulcer. Maybe its gas or constipation- never dealt with that but I haven't had a bowel movement ---- a real one---- in several days.

Well today is wonderful. I have decided I am only weighing myself once a month on my surgery date, this way I am not dissapointed on the days I gain a pound or don't lose. I have also decided to stop being a couch potato and to start measuring myself also once a month to see if I don't lose weight maybe it will be the inches. I blame myself for being in the bad moods I've been in lately. I wasn't taking my meds correctly or at all for almost two weeks. I have started back on that regimen again. I need the happy pills. It had little to do with my weight. Even during my thinner moments I had issues with depression and anxiety. Surgery will not fix these things only time will and counseling. I have a busy day ahead. I'll write later.....

I left work early Wednesday because of vomiting. Thursday I called off because of vomiting. I'm back to work and feel awful. What is wrong with me? I can't understand why I am having so many issues. Ulcer, Strictures and vomit. Good thing- my blood pressure is way down so no need for meds! My muscles are weak and I can't make myself excercise. I need to. I am out of the stall I was in but I could help myself by excercising more. Its difficult because its so humid and hot outside and if I go inside I have an audience. Maybe I'll go to bed earlier and get up earlier to exercise before work.

Well, I am vomiting again. I lasted almost 1 week without any issues and yesterday afternoon I started with lunch and have continued through breakfast this morning. Called the doc. We'll see what happens later. I uploaded my after surgery pics finally.

THANK YOU!!!!! I weighed again.... I know I shouldn't weigh daily but I'm still under 300 pounds!!!!!!